feb first.. my mother in a refusal to use her CPAP.. fell into critical levels of CoT?ITEM 2 poisioning.. and stage 3-4 oxygen deprevation.. and in her  instability.. and  retching side pains she had been having for 2 weeks.. comming out of the bathroom.. her legs gave out beneath her.. colapsing all her large weight on herself.. her  left femur split like an arrow along its length.. and shattered every bone in her nakle.. and  broke off her heel..

2 days later.. feb 3rd... it was learned that the pain in her side was from her kidneys going into  failure... and the stress her body had been going through.. and lack of cpap use.. her lungs.. were also failing..  she was a breath from dying... she was placed into a chemical induced coma for a week till her body could begin to recover.

during this time.. her work terminated her employment for being an insurance liability.. which aparently.. is legal in Florida.. no matter the reason or how long you have worked at your job.. so even if one manager dont like you for the smallest reason.. they have full legal right..to let you go.

without a job.. she had no insurance....  after she was stable.. a week later.. they put her into surgery to try and repair her foot and leg... sadly this is the day the hospital learns of her insurance being cut off..  and she was released fromt he hiospital.. to home.. without after surgery therapy or treatment.

shes now on the couch.. unable to move.. granny is gone.. but my work continues.. now caring for her.. diapers.. cooking.. same duties as it was for granny.. but now.. my mom.we had initiated medical emergency clauses on her credit cards.. giving us a 6 month leway  where we dont have to pay on them at the moment... and initiated paperwork to have mom moved to garrys insurance.....

today... garry  found his own touch with the any cause firing clause florida has.. after 13 years of working as a nicht stocker at walmart.. he was let go.. by the nightime manager that hates everyone.. stating that he can no longer keep up with workers in their 20s.... and with nothing more then that exuse.. was was removed ont eh spot.... thus there goes HIS income.. and his insurance.

the medical companies have already started to come by and remove some of the  equipment that mom needs daily to keep her alive...
ive been on a ramen regiment for some time.. but mom cant get by on ramen alone.. and garrys not been in that kind of situation before..
taxes are right around the corner.. we own the house.. but house and property taxes are a couple grand each year.. meaning.. we own the house.. but the government can still take it from us...
i knew when those i took care of died.. becuase of garry id end up int he streets.. but i never thought it would happen while  mom was still alive and incompacitated...

garry can try for an app at lowes.. but its a dead economy...and hes already found out the hard way hes not capable of staying home and caring for mom.. he hasent the patience for it.. and after all these years.. FINALLY acknowledges the shit ive had to deal with.. the lack of sleep.. the physical and emotional stress...

life has already been shit and uncertain.... but im really starting to doubt that things can get much worse now.. not just for me.. but this family as a whole... nobody should have to go through hell like this...

im sorry that im putting these here.. but its the only release ive got left.. ive got a few friends i game with online.. but  i cant place this kind of load on them.. they arent that kind of friend..opening to them emotionally would only run them off...so i write here.... at least its some sort of release.. some sort fo focus.